Hiv/AIDS

Seven months ago……..Today I was thinking about my brother whom died this past July 2006 from AIDS.  I never thought he had Hiv/AIDS and I never though he would ever be the one that had it.   The sad part is I saw him die in the hospital.  The fact is it was a awful way to die and to even think about seeing someone die from AIDS never went through my mind.   I think about all the good times we have had and I never thought I would have to just sit and think of all the good time he and I have had.   When I lived with him in Statesboro, Georgia and we would go out to eat, go to Club One with friends.  We really had some good times together.   My brother was very smart and a good guy to know.   He loved being successful and helpful to others that needed help.  When my brother passed away it really took a lot from the family and they still are grieving to this day.   He was a homosexual and he was living with HIV and AIDS and never knew.   He had no signs of having AIDS so most people never know.  He loved everyone!   My mom has had a hard time dealing with her lost of her son.   In fact she is on two different types of meds to help her get through the hard times each day.   The thing is I saw how it was when a person is dying from AIDS and I saw nothing but pain.  My brother was on life support for a while and when they took him into MICU it was really the end of time.   I knew he was going to die I just did not know when.  I thought I could have at least one more day drinking coffee or driving to Star Bucks to have a cup of coffee.  He was on 100% oxygen, 4 to 5 different meds, and he also lost some blood.  The doctor said he could make it or he might not make it.   I still think about the day when I got the info that my brother had passed away.  I was leaving Wal Mart in Tiftion, Georgia and I got the call as soon as I got to the red light.  I have never felt as empty as I did that day.   I just went as fast as I could to get to him.  By the time I got to him it was all over, I fell out.  I have never cried so much in my life as I did that day.   I felt like I was in a flood with all the tears that where falling from my face.  So to this day being that I never knew my brother was positive I want to tell all to get tested and always be safe!